busy doing nothing.

it's the first day of december. okay i admit, i am not that psyched for the holidays due to several "material" reasons. my planned out of town trip was canceled, i can't invite the only person i wanna be with on these two concerts i've been dying to watch, i haven't started my christmas shopping yet, most of my gift-giving plans will not happen, and don't get me started with my 13th month bonus which was f**king taxed for some reason!

anyways, i'm seriously considering of resorting to eBay and Multiply for my christmas shopping. i have to cut down my budget big time: thanks to my loving company who stole 10,000 bucks from me (everyone is enraged, not just me!). also, i don't have the time plus a car to go to bazaars, and again, my heart isn't really into shopping these days. shopping! i love shopping! or, i used to?? omg now i'm really sick. how could my heart be so dead this season? i've always been a fan of christmas. i love the simbang gabi, the puto bumbong, the christmas tree, the wrapping of gifts, the reunions, exchange gifts, christmas parties, new clothes, everything! i still have 24 days to uplift my mood though. can i do it? read my previous post and answer for me please.

it seems like all of my friends are so busy doing their own thing recently. what with all the movements at the office, family vacations and out of the country trips. sometimes i wish i'm part of the movement so that i can pretend to be busy as well. and my dear friend is also busy doing some stuff to even text or call me. my point is, i should be busy as well. i should be out there, super tired, sweaty and smiling. don't get me wrong, i'm fine, but i feel like i should be doing more than just sit in front of my pc and shop online. time is ticking away, i haven't went out with friends since tagaytay which is almost a week ago already. this is not the single katz.Ü

i guess it's time to get out of bed and contact my drinking buddies, i have to remedy this asap or else i'll have a closet full of bags in no time (i think i'm setting a pattern of 2 purchases per day since i got my bonus). i am so sick.