Good Riddance and Bye-Bye!! (Easier said than done)

After a break-up (or in my case, a fall-out), I like to do two things – 1. go the salon for a haircut and get my nails done; 2. flush the sucker out of my system and my life. The first one is easy. A single trip to Tony & Jackey is all I need and I come out feeling really pretty and ready to party. The second thing, however, is FAR from being easy. Especially with Facebook, Twitter, Yahoo Messenger, BBM, etc.

I remember back in highschool when I could just rip off a few pictures and delete a phone number, and my ex would be BYE-BYE-BYE faster than Britney Spears’ marriage. But now, with all these social networking sites and instant messengers, I actually have to debate with myself whether or not I should go through ALL of my pictures and DE-TAG his face next to mine. And with the number of albums that I have plus tagged pics? That could seriously take hours. Hours that I’m not sure I’m willing to spend on him, at least not anymore.

Now, it might get you confused when I say that I haven’t been in a relationship in a while, say a year and a half. (ALL TOGETHER NOW: “Then why the hell are you talking about ex’es?!”) HOWEVER, I have been in-love in that span of time, twice. And yeah, both are epic fails (lol). But even though it didn’t work, I’m not the type who hold grudges – at least not for so long. It didn’t work out for a reason so leave it at that. I mean, yeah there was a point in time when I absolutely hated someone for lying. But you can only hate someone for so long that it gets tiring.

So now, yeah I’m kinda tired hating people – especially if that someone used to be really important to me and the reasons for not staying is reeeeaallly mothafucking plausible. I got no choice right? But still, it leaves me a big question on how do I get rid of him from my life when reminders of that person are everywhere and on SOOOO MANY FREAKIN’ MEDIUMS? Do I delete all of our past YM msgs and old emails?? Do I de-friend his family and bestfriends on Facebook?

How far should I go to remove someone from my life? Do I really have to dig into ALL of my web sites, IM’s and emails and delete his SOAB face out of my web page just to get closure?

Mid-year syndrome.

Okay, it’s the middle of the year and i haven’t accomplished anything yet. This blog has been empty for months now mainly because, well, there’s nothing worth writing. To be honest I am a bit disconnected with my friends for the first quarter of this year due to insanity (again) that I am still trying to cope up with. Very very few of my bestfriends knew what I have been up to and now that it’s done and over with, I am trying to go back to my old ways of emotional detachment and bringing back the social life that I’ve lost for quite some time.

I am thinking of taking a turn on the kind of blog entries to put here. Now that many people have taken an interest in reading this little rant page of mine, I think it would not be appropriate to document my emotions anymore especially if it will satisfy the craving of my beloved haters (pun intended). And since I am into tech stuff and school is coming up, I “might” use this as a portal of my thoughts on various subjects excluding my not-so-perfect lovelife (lol).

Welcome to the emotionless side of me. Ü

PS. Writing via Windows Live Writer, and I so love it!! Made my life so much easier!! Ü