i never forgot what my guy friend told me about his ex: that she still teases him about me and that she does that as if SHE IS WAY BETTER THAN ME. i was shocked. i've always wanted to be friends with her and i know that she has a mean bone sometimes, but treating herself as if she was better than anyone? that was beyond i expected. first of all, i will never date my friend. secondly, she's an ex already why does she keep on insulting the girls he's with! i want my guy friend to be truly happy and i told him that i'm here to support him now that his mind suddenly went on hiatus with all the decision-making.
the girl's remark got me thinking on what it takes to be the best for someone. what's the basis of anyone commenting that they are better than someone? looks? financial status? car model? level of kindness? generosity? job description? ...i admit i do that sometimes as well, telling to myself that i am better than my ex's new girl, or that i am better than our class valedictorian, etc. etc. and i'd be a hyprocrite if i say that i don't base it on looks and grades. however, i've only done it on those scenarios. for everything else, i can never say that i am better than anyone. not because i am a nice person, but because i can't really think of anything i am good at.
my then-boyfriend asked me once: "what's your talent?" and i paused thinking. i love to read, i am anal in proof-reading articles, i blog, used to join academic debates, i like dancing, billiards and poetry. the list can go on and on but neither of them can pass as a talent. a talent is an activity that you are exceptionally good at, and i am not a poetry genious nor a professional blogger. back in my school days i am very active in extra curricular activities, but most of them are academic contests. don't get me wrong, i am an above average student but definitely not a science or math whiz. i don't play any musical instrument and not engaged in any sport. i am good at several things, but my skills are NOT exceptional.
having said that, should i come to the conclusion that i may only be second-best to everything?
is that the reason why i still haven't met my prince? is it because i look for the best when i myself isn't even good enough for others?
---nag-iinarte mode, pardon my blog entry tonight. lol
1 comment:
sometimes, we never really know what we're good at unless it's slapped in our face. Haha. Besides, there really never is anything good about people who only feel good with themselves when they've put others down. :)
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